I had a dream this morning,a nightmare actually. i saw him wit a punkt girl (i doubt he'll date sumone like her, since he liked the chixy-type)and she was like 14(dat made sense..hehe) or sumthing. curly locks wit chucks. i poked him when he passed by me, he dint seemed to be surprised or anything but he just spontaneoulsy said that he does want me no more and he wud pay evrything I spent when we were together. The girl kept apologizing on the side when I was too busy crying. She even called me "Ate". She's the mahinhin type but I know for a fact that she's lying. thats why I called her puta. I dint have the strength to strangle her hair coz my energy has been swept away with my tears. tada! then i woke up! thank God its onli a dream. I wept for awhile and i cud feel my heart thumping very fast. I haent had that strange dream since i was a kid when I dreamed my dad and beloved tita died. Twas my first time to wake up froma a nightmare. Like what we'd usually see in the movies. yeeeahh that kind ov.. i think u know what I mean.

haayy.. I dont know what will be ahead ov us but one thing know..its up 2 us to make things happen. Life could be uncertain at times, but its up to us make a sense of it.=)

paranoia of the oblivion. I hear massive vroooomm vrooom in my head and I cant help the fact to feel nervous for he always leaves a mark to my soul. Its staggering but its truth. 

taena.

The day is hoooot and very humid. Im at my room done with reading magazines and listening to ole good musica nd now just doing absoutely nothing. Just Bum.

Thinking. What else can I do just to save the day? C'mon, its summer!

Tud!Tud!tud!

And Becca was there..

"Ate, swimming tayo...!"

and the ate wud say "Tara!"

After 30 mins of "pumping" the humungous plastic pool..we are ready to Dive in!! Summah!! Kala niyo resort puntaha namen noh..haha!

 haay! welcome to the good life.....hehehe

ITSHO YOUR BURDAY! WE GON PARTY LIKE ITSHO BURDAY! WE GON SIP BRANDY(matador!) LIKE ITSHO BURDAY! AND WE DONT GIVE A FUCK BECOZ IT YO BURDAY!

April 5, 2008 (twas supposed to be April 3rd). This was the day when my dearest friend celebrated her 20th birthday. My friend finally left the world of living in the age where you still put no. 1 on the right side when you are asked to write down your age in a paper. Gone are the days of "teen-age". For some people, being on their twenties are the most edgy event in their life because its the era when one person is given a license to dump their teenybopper roles in  to a more mature roles(whew!showbiz..err?). Some may be excited but some are unhappy. Ceejay accepted her turning age with a shear of smile. Hinde naman daw kasi halata..pwede na daw tlaga sha manood ng bold kasi twenty na sha (grins!)..yeah! well, I second the motion!hehe! BUt For me,Youth and aging doesnt count on how many candles u blow in the cake(of course, physiologic issues are acceptable) but rather how a person perceived his/her life as if it was its beginning. Full of hope and determination.

Here are some of the pics...

Reunited! and it feels sooooo goood!

What would it really take to be a real funny-commediene type of a person? who in place never fails to make atleast one person to burst a hearty laugh? well, I guess whoever that was or whomever they were..well they must be goddamned talented!.

Sense of humor. I believe that each one of us have this thing called "sense of humor"..corny man o may "sense talaga"...I think having sense of humor is something that is born in each one of us..kahit mapresidente man o ung mga terorista well ithink meron paden.. its just that  tago lang(ui shy type..takot mabara!)..kasi reputasyon nga naman. pero come to think of it..without humor what will make the world go round? huh?! anu daw?! well... im just having humor here. (err? corny). So, pano nga ba nakukuha ang sense of humor?....whoever reads this entry must leave a comment...hinde ba masyang magkaron ng forum bout humor...lets clear our mind about this topic because its pretty damn serious................................................................................................

hehe! well,anu ba?! may sense pa b ang entry kong toh??!!hahha...well, all i know. There's no such thing as good sense of humor because humor varies in each individual. There's this joke na nakakatawa sayo but then sa iba hinde. There's a lot of individ's who like corny jokes but some loves green jokes. I think it really depends. as long as, may matatawa sayo at matatawa ka den. Havent you noticed kung nakakapagpatawa sayo eh yun din ang ijojoke mu kahit gano pa man toh kacorny??....

Humor matters when people still laugh. I dunno if Im makin sense here..well i think not. Basta un na un. ika nga nila  "Mas madaling magpaiyak kesa  sa magpatawa" ....Madaling magpaiyak lalo na pag magulang na pinasok sa usapan tipong retreat o wowowee and dating, pro pag nagjoke ka at sinabe mu sa umpisa na nakakatawa ung joke mu,, ayun naman pla hinde... eh bka masuntok kpa or masabihan ka ng "woehhhhhh..pampam"...mahirap ang magpatawa pero hu cares?! basta masaya buhay.... ok n un! carry na...Mahirap iexplain ang humor pero dont worry i'll get more of it in the next entry. KApos kasi ako sa time ngaun, i cant explain further especially when Im in a rush.. my mind is jarred.

tickles!! courtesy by my friend..(fatnigga.multiply.com)

if you were to die tomorrow, why not today?

if you were stucked in an island, how did you get there?

if symptoms persist, would you consult a doctor?

aanhin pa ang bahay na bato... kung di ka nman dun nakatira

aanhin pa ang damo... kung shabu na ang uso..


the family that prays together, has only one rosary

the family that sings together, is a choir


MC: Who is ur favorite action star?
Gay: Arnold Schwarzenegger!
MC: Please spell Schwarzenegger.
Gay: (Kinabahan) Honestly? Si Lito Lapid naman talaga eh... hehe


MAGANDANG GABI SA INYONG LAHAT..

NANINIWALA AKO SA KASABIHANG :

AANHIN MO ANG MALAPASYONG BAHAY KUNG ITO AY SA KAPITBAHAY LAMANG!

NANINIWALA DIN AKO SA KASABIHANG:

WALANG BAKLANG PANGIT SA LALAKING GIPIT!

MARAMING SALAMAT PO!

LOL!

hmmm...time reads 12:30am.Still, my face is glued to the monitor of my laptop. Although my eyes are teary and my consciousness will soon depart from me, I'm still here typing, typing, browsing and clicking. There's so many words to say on this blog but hell I couldn't find the words to start with. is my brain begins to deteriorate now because im turning 20 or is it because my brain is giving me signals to just forget evrything and SLEEP?...

aha! alam ko na...excited lang aq magsulat ngaun kasi nagdecide ako na lumipat nang blogsite. I decided to make multiply.com to be my official blog site for the reason of photo sharing. medyo mas madali at sa totoo lang andito mga contacts ko...it'll be exciting naman kung meron namang magbabasa ng blog entries ko duh buh..unlike sa blogger sobrang konti lang. Feeling ko kasi professional blogger nako like chicksilog, greenpinoy and The Gasoline Dude etc. Tangena lang db?...well hu cares? care bear?

well, I told my bf na i'll be sleeping early kaya lang sori baby if I didn't kasi medyo gising pa tlaga diwa ko. Gusto na sana niya maglakbay kaya lang ayaw talaga eh..hinde talga ako madapuan ng antok. I tried closing my eyes and start counting sheeps in my head but its not working, sumakit lang ung frontal sinuses ko. KAya eto, I decided to entertain myself..err..entertain? baka abusuhin ang mga mata para makaramdam man lang ng kirot at maisipang magpahinga na...

well, i know this entry is not meaningfull to evryone, hell as if it was for me..db?..pampaantok lang. I therefore conclude blogging is not a form of expression but its also a an alliance in promoting sleep and rest.. hehehe..

haaaay....well, medyo gumagana na ang strategy-ing toh mejo antok nko...gudnyt world.

zzZZZZZzzz..wala nkong maisip na ending.hehe..

well im now shit locked up here in my room whole day just doin nothing. Me and  my bf went out last night just for dinner and the next thng we knew we came home late (as in like 4am!). Because of that, my mom went ballistic and all, even mentioning some motel thing of some sort. So in short,  mummy and I are not in good in terms. Hence, I cant go anywhere else but stay at my room. Luckily, I have my computer at my room and have the opportunity to just listen to my feel-good music and just do this shitty blog.

Blogging has been my interest since 2002. I was like 3rd year ata when that thing crossed  my radar. I'm a person who loves to read and at the process also begins to admire writers. And because of my admiration, I aspired to be one of 'em.. to not just express what they feel inside but to feel appreciated at the same time. I am also a person who loves to write diaries, a person who not only enjoys bitch-fest stuff but a person who also wants to hone her english-writing. err?...In a nutshell,I am a frustrated writer. I have several blog sites back then but due to some life-changing moments took place I have no choice but to erase them all. It was a tear-jerker because it was that time when I have the chance to reflect on my life as to what has become of me since 2002. It was also that 2002 when I opened my mind to the realm of web(Don ko nalaman na hinde pala ko ignorante sa makabagong mundo ng computers) and honed my skills in english(hell, we're living in a 3rd world country, so it was like the chinese who are like soooo ignorant with the englsih language) . But actually, it was no "big" after all because with my "old" blogs erased, I will no longer face the thing call ed humiliation because of all the wrong-grammar I've made in my blogs. Hahaha! well, what do you expect naman..eh 3rd year hs plang aku non at ako'y isang tunay na batang lakeng pasig so malamang lamang di pako hasa magenglish...sssshhhhh..enough na ang pagiging defensive. Well anyhooo, it doesnt matter anymore as long as im improving my craft.

besides, sbe naman sa isang post sa whatsikat.com.."Blogging is not a literature".....

I think blogging is an art of expressing onself hence it's an outlet unto what one wants to share with the world. No rules.

 when was the last time U had a great time with your friends? I mean, real friends. for me, it was like decades ago. Its a sad thing that time flies by and there's a lot of things that took place that some of us didnt notice.  time to bond with ur friends no more.err, its awkward, confusing, and embarassing. embarassing in a point that you dont know what to say to start a conversation and yet you just babble w-h-a-t-evs. so nonsense right?.I feel really sad because the world seems so busy right now that often times we struggle hard to fit all the day's activity in a nutshell. you squeezed yourself just to attain a goal and yet its just not enough. ironic right?.. well, i guess life goes that way. it's up to us what and who our priorities are. if you choose to spend time with your friends then u'll be happy and just loosen up while to choose time for work then u'll ahve to sacrifice something such as social life (that's like a no-no) but then if ur luck enough to be superman/wonderman and just balance evrthing, then ur lucky.

Bottom part: prioritization plays a big part in one's life. Without it, our life would be a room full of bags and papers scattered on the floor. One gets confused, wasted and tired.

really bottom part: I really miss my friends!

I have never been so low and vulnerable in  my entire life since yesterday. I feel angyr inside but love still smothers at me. I couldnt help myself but cry but at the end of the day I still managed to smile and be happy.

 Why is it tears dry even if your still sad?...

Happy 2nd Month to us baby!

"2 ba o 3?? (tapos sabay tawa) hahaha...hinde ko alam eh"

Yan ang lagi nameng conversion ni Kiko tuwing sasapit ang bisperas ng monthsary namen. haay kalorkay nga naman oo. well, on to what date our realtionship started it doesnt matter anymore.bsta kame paden ayos na...hehehe tama bko? (aminin mo?!) i Love you kiko..

chum chum chum! nyum nyum nyum!

time reads 10 am and Im sitting here in the very lamo comp shop here in mendiola. I can smell all the fartsy different people here. Who are soooo fucking cramming with everything. This place has been a sanctuary for most students but for some its hell. I just transferred schools..all u all know.im from st.paul university. haha like im soooo proud. but being an ex-paulinian sometimes make me wanna cry and scream..HELL! WHY AM I HERE?!  actually i do enjoy this place. with all the new friends and trappings of crowded society.I smoke whenever and wherever I want to. Its an asylum. but the thing is, I cant focus myself to study right now. (been absent in my 1st subject) hell.

Bro, Dude, or Tangina Mo as what we call each other. She's been my friend since my 1st year in college. Boy! am i mighty glad to have known her. My bestbud,party bud and drink bud. Whatever you call our relationship, all i know its beyond friendship.Sisterhood na!haha.LEsbianism? eww nooooo dear. We've been through hardships (boys,boys, and girls! load of 'em),laughters, tears and kababuyan whew! name it all! just really love this gal soooo mats and  I dont know why d hell I wrote a blog for her. Its like soooo fuckin mushy?!! yeah right! haha..hu cares? anyway,by the way, highway!

"Tang inang mga lalake yan!!! swear dude last na toh"..dramatic as it may seem! pero yan lage nameng dinadaing ni ghill.. then saby bawi after 3 mins, even 5 seconds! hahaha!

Our friendship mainly consists of soooo much alcohol, cigarettes, boy-bitch fest,nagging, "malditaness", right moves on the floor,fashion, party, family ties and PURE LOVE!!

p.s. certified hottie.=p

INTRODUCING!

NESCA-PAN!

as in like Nescafe and Pandesal.hehe.nothing special. But I would like to share this simple but very satisfying snack.

A rainy tuesday afternoon made me crave for a cup of coffee (.."a cup in hand..one moment, one nescafe.." in the background). I was sitting at my table study for 5 hours now, just surfing and surfing the net. My eyes are teary and I kknow if they have mouths they would really yell at me "tang ina mo..adik kb?!".and also I'm getting a lilbit sleppy(I dunno why, I didnt get a nap). So I decided to take a break and replenish my mood with a good cup of coffee and a warm pandesal (no "palaman').

Lam nio ung Pandesal ididip nio sa coffee instead of putting some dairy substances?..kung ginwa mo un sainyo then most probably parehas taung weirdo. hehe. wala lang. I prefer that way of eating pandesal kasi mas masasavor q ung tlgang lasa ng bread kesa sa budburan ng sangkatutak na dairy. eww. nakakasuya un.

Nesca-Pan gave me warmth on a cold rain tuesday afternoon. the aroma of my coffee brought me back to earth and finally relived my sleepy senses. haay saraaaap magkape! samahan mu pa ng nakakabusog na pandesal!

kung di mo pa nttry un. eh pwes itry mu na. coz u'll miss half of ur life! haha joke.

actuali walang kwenta tong blog nto. wla lang tlga kong magawa. eh kesa namn aq nmn kainin ng boredom ko db? -eww panu un? hehe anyway.

err,i really hope I could write a sensible blog nex time.hehe

" There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love"

                                                                                   1 John 4:18

Love is always right. Love is believed to be wrong because people tend to make things complicated but love is never wrong.

God. I spent my whole afternoon just figuring out how to use this multiply.com thingy. Pretty confused but Im getting the hang of it. so there, much to more pics and blogs for the coming years. haha. chill.